Life Blog
21 June, 2025. Night walk near Olympic Park
Post-graduation limbo. One chapter has ended,but I don’t feel quite ready for the next. Feeling a bit lost today. Really Grateful for my friend Teng Li and his girl friend Xiao Liu for treating me Luosifen buffet near the South Gate of University. It meant a lot that they took the time to include me——it really warmed my heart at that a bit lonely peroid of time.
Today I wrapped up the last errand for my supervisor xls. I mentioned that I was just wandering around Beijing, surprisly, he insisted on treating the three of us graduates to a meal before we head off in different life directions. ALthough we’ve have been looking forward to this, time didn’t permit. Sitll, it speaks volume——desibite his quirky temperament, his character and attitude for his students are ultimately solid.
It has been nearly two years since my last visit the Bird’s Nest. Walking alone this time, I found a sense of tranquility and composure that crowd could never offer. Looking back the begining of the journery of Master, Gabby was the first lesson to me---unforgetable teacher influenced how I understand the nature of love. In hindsight, there was a purity and beauty to those thoughts that I still cherish. I once fantasized about confessing my feeling to her by the tranquil spring in Olympic Forest Park, painting for her a picture of my deepest craving for the word. But everything was destined to me. In that experience, the deffects of my character were laid bare for all to see. Thank you， Gabby. Your romance and fascinating soul left a deep mark one me when I was 22. I will forever cherish those overwhelming feelings and the sleepless night filled with longing. In the future, I will continue to refine my aspirations,bobbies, and character, learning to be more tolerance and accepting. As for my career, it is set in stone. I will fight for it relentlessly!
For the past two years, I have experienced my first yearning for love and another rounds of pursuing of my career. I remember the confusion when I first started my master’s following the building of academic ideal-only to eventually see through the nature of things. The”academic freedom” I once dreamed of is no longer a path I dare to chase. But I have come to realize that what I truly love is solving problems and revolutionizing tehchnology; that is my defineation of research.
Beijing, oh, Beijing, I will be leaving you again soon. I still remember the first time I came was in 2018, right after Gaokao, accompanying Kun to handle the tripartite employment tripartite. And now, roughly seven years later, I find myself at a similar crosscroads. This time, howerver, my roads lead to Shanghai. I do love this city, and I really cherish the memery here in my rest of life.
Over these three years, under Professor Fang’s platform, I witnessed firsthand how a top-tier research team operates. Working with Xu —— who was both a mentor and a friend —— made my graduate life anything but boring. There were conflicts, and there were moments of resentment, but I am walking away with one firm conviction: giving you all for your career and your life will ultimately leave you with no regrets. Some hornors might add a touch of encouragement and comfort to these three years work. To sum it up: “Giving everything for your career and ideals may not lead to world-shattering achievement, but it will absolutely ensure that you never waste your time and ennergy regretly.”
May these four years of my PhD be the time when I find the one and the calling. I hope to pursue what I love most, with the person I love most be my side. For the rest of my life, I wiil remain steadfast——guarding both my love and my passion, unwavering till the end.
